So… I’m Fat

Okay, okay, I know, horrible title. But sometimes, the truth hurts.

As I eluded to in yesterday’s post my clothes don’t fit.

Also, when I was in the bath last night, I looked like I was still pregnant. And last time I checked, I’m NOT.

I was on track, steadily losing weight UNTIL. The Holidays. Let’s just say I celebrated the birth of Jesus by making myself look like I was going to give birth to Jesus. Lovely.

I didn’t even post the picture of just Tim and I by the Christmas tree because I looked like some sort of RED cow. Moo.

There were the truffles and cookies and peppermint bark and, well lots of FOOD and it ALL seemed to be calling my name.

“Come here Elaine, we are so tasty and good and you know you want to eat until you are all pig-like and stuffed.”

Stupid food.

Sometimes I really hate it. Most of the time I love it TOO MUCH. Therein likes the rub.

Mmmmm… rub, like on ribs.

See??

So why such mad love for food? Because it tastes good.

And maybe {just maybe} because I don’t have a lot of friends here and food tends to take the place.

Or maybe that’s just an excuse and I need to get a grip. On the treadmill that is.

I have gone to the health club twice in the last 4 days. I tried to start the Couch to 10K program again but I need to lose a few more pounds first. The first run was okay but then I came back and looked up the schedule and saw that I’d been too easy on myself.

So, I plan to do the elliptical and the treadmill on and off as well as weights and hopefully on warmer days, walk with the kids too. But soon I WILL run.

I’ve already lost a pound since I’ve changed my eating (and let’s face it, drinking- hot cocoa made with whole milk, wine…) ways.

I can’t completely eliminate all this stuff because if I did I would NOT be fun to live with. But I can TOTALLY cut down and hopefully that will help my waist line cut down too.

Also, I’ve joined the ladies at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans again for their current challenge and I’m determined to make it out of a certain ‘decade’ this time.

I don’t feel good about myself right now and that’s a hard realization. So, I must change. I WILL change.

Thanks for any and all support from this community. I know y’all will give it because you rock like that.

I’m off to drink a glass of water…