Leaving…

I have never had trouble leaving my children for a few days.

Maybe it is because I love my children so much that I like to experiment with that whole, “Distance makes the heart grow fonder thing.”  😉

I did not cry the first day I dropped B off at daycare.  I went back to work after 3 months of taking care of him and I took him to a well established home day care where I KNEW he would be in amazing hands.  I remember that first day so well – getting back in the car and driving to work with my make-up on and feeling free.  Feeling adult again.  I was looking forward to seeing my work friends again and lunch out.

I remember trying to make myself shed even one tear because if not, what kind of mother was I? But it did not come.  We both needed that separation at that time. We just did.

So I wonder if perhaps that established a feeling in me that it was OKAY to be away from my kids from time to time.

And it is.

Tim and I have always taken trips by ourselves too.  Even when B was a baby we took off to Florida for a few days, while his grandparents loved on him the whole time.

When Tim and I agreed that it was best I stay home after G was born I think I was a little in shock.  I was SO used to working.  But we knew that my pay would basically only cover day care for two kids and that the stress of having 2 in daycare and driving to another city for work was just not worth it.

So I stopped working.  And started blogging (even before he was born, actually).

Honestly, I cannot imagine working RIGHT now (maybe someday again…).

I’m thinking about all of this because I am leaving on a jet plane to go to BlogHer on Wednesday morning for several days without them.  I’m leaving behind my mini-van and my Mom schedule and handing it over to others (thank you to Tim and my MIL for taking care of them!)  I think it’s always a little nerve-wracking to give over control of your “job” to someone else.

But obviously they will be well taken care of and well, Mommy needs a break.

So off I go, with my suitcase packed full of clothes and shoes that I don’t normally wear every day and a shower every morning instead of who-knows-when during the day.  And I get to have lunch (and dinner!) out with my friends. 🙂

It’s gonna be awesome.

And the reunion with my babies will be even that much sweeter…

How do you feel about leaving your children for a few days?