There were a few tears as I walked them to where their classes were gathering. I was nervous times three. I could feel it all morning. I didn’t even sleep well the night before. My tummy was full of butterflies and flipping and flopping FOR them. I can only imagine how they were feeling. A totally new place. New friends. New everything. Yes, they have visited before. But still.
After I made sure their big brother was situated (that was the easy part) two little hands grasped each of mine and I could see the anticipation building. I could feel it. My heart felt the complete push and pull of wanting to stay by their sides and needing to walk away. There is so much of this in motherhood. But this day…. it felt even more.
My boy who is shy getting to know people and so sensitive. My little girl who is timid at first too, but once she gets to know you, is usually okay.
My little girl starting Kindergarten!! All three of them in school…
I drove away enjoying the silence. But…
Once I returned home I cried off and on all day. Where were they? Why was it so quiet? I wanted the quiet. I longed for it. But now it was too much.
I tried turning on the t.v. for background noise but the “connection was lost”. I get it t.v. My connection is lost too…
We spent so much time together this summer. Sometimes it felt like too much, but of course now that they are all gone it feels like not enough.
Too much. Not enough.
The balance came in the afternoon when I picked them up and they were all smiles as they piled into the van. Each one exclaiming they had a great day and that it was awesome!
My heart sung. I was so glad to see them again. Even if they were asking for snacks and talking over one another.
We were all together again and they were good and I was great and we would do it all again tomorrow.
Kindergarten, 3rd Grade, 6th Grade!
Aww. I know. Starting a new school year is hard enough. Add in a whole new school for all three of them and it super scary. I can see why you didn’t sleep the night before. I am the same way.
I am so glad it went well. And I love their new uniforms. What a handsome looking crew!
Prayers for a wonderful school year, new friends, and fantastic new teachers!
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OH do I know those feelings well, my friend!! It’s such a hard transition, isn’t it? The worry, the release, the quiet… the waiting, the anticipation, the re-connection. Those first few days of letting go are the hardest.
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I adore their uniforms. SO DARN CUTE!
I get this even though I am not a stay at home mom. School starting is always bittersweet. I never get to do that first day drop off because it’s my first day too, so that stings.
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I remember feeling that same way the first day all three of mine were in school for the whole day! The silence was deafening. This year, they will be in 3rd, 5th, & 8th grades, but the younger two are starting a new school. I think we are all nervous AND excited.
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That picture is just precious. I hope everyone has a great school year.
Lucas starts first grade in two weeks and I’m in such denial!
Sigh. It’s bittersweet, for sure.
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Letting go is so hard. What always gets me is when I look back at pictures and then I glance around at my current life realizing how much time has passed.
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So cute! Glad their first day went well and you survived too. It’s HARD but enjoy, time flies…. 🙂
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I’m so glad they had a wonderful first day. And look at them – so smart! (and gosh, so grown up)
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