I feel like I have posted this here before, probably several years ago. I would have to go back and look into my somewhat extensive archives. But here goes again anyway: I need to lose weight. Not necessarily so I look “good” or “better”, but because it would be beneficial to my overall health if I…
Fight or Flight
The warm cup of coffee sits before me and I think about all the things that would taste good with it. Like a muffin or a scone. Like a bowl of “cinnamon cereal”. Just one small bowl. And then the word “NO” pops into my head. A HUGE fonted “NO” that screams at me, YOU…
I know someone else at the gym wants my body too…
There is a woman who belongs to my gym/club that has a super rockin’ body. Whenever she is in front of me on any apparatus in the large cardio room then I am guaranteed to watch her for a bit. My eyes gravitate towards her. And don’t lie to yourself (or me) and tell me…
Bai-5, Give Me Something Good to Drink!
I am desperately trying to lose a few pounds before my 20 year!!! high school reunion in July and lemme tell you, it is NOT easy this time around. One of the things I KNOW I need to do but cannot seem to actually enact is drinking more water. It is always an after thought for…
The Voices in my Head
I hate walking by the mirror in my bedroom. It’s big and shows all of me. I am big too. The voices as I walk by go something like this: “You are fat. Sure, go ahead and suck in your gut but then when you push it out again you’re just going to see that…
In which I get depressed about having TOO much food to eat. File under 1st world problems.
This morning I stepped on the scale and the number 165 showed up. ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY-FIVE POUNDS. There was no wishing it away or making it change or stepping off and stepping on again and having it be different. It WAS what it was. And then I cried. I cried because at one point…
This roller coaster…
Sometimes you’re up and sometimes you’re down. The ups are scary and the downs are scarier. I’m in the downs right now. I cannot run (still, yet, now, pain free, ugh). This fact makes me a bit depressed. And so I just want to EAT! The true definition of a vicious cycle in my life….
Just Keepin’ in Real
I came home from our week-long road trip to a husband I missed A LOT. My friends and family were great while we visited with them. The kids and I spent about 17 hours on the road total and they did really well. We had a wonderful time and it was so nice to hang…
Are they too short?
I bought these shorts at Loft a few weeks ago. And then I kinda regretted it. But, it gets REALLY hot here. However, I am 36 now. NOT 16. Are they too short? What do YOU think?I’ve been going over it in my head and looking at myself in the mirror and let me tell you…
So, Um, I Kinda Lost 30 Pounds…
The other morning I stepped on the scale and glanced down at the number between my feet and a HUGE smile came across my face. I’ve done it, y’all. I’ve lost 30 pounds!! The number on the scale isn’t lying. All the running. All the “low-carbing”. All the Zumba classes. All the desserts resisted. It…