I was standing at the sink rinsing dishes and putting them in the dishwasher yesterday, which is nothing out of the ordinary. But in one moment, as I was loading the kids forks and spoons, I was suddenly struck with the realization that I do not have any babies anymore. At least not technically. Yes,…
Tunnel Vision
Sometimes your wallet gets “lost or stolen” and you cancel all the cards and freak out about not having a driver’s license and you cry a little a lot. And then the next morning you are cleaning up toys and there you find it, where it is presumed the toddler left it after using it…
From a Distance – i heart faces
I took my boy to the plant nursery one day to help me shop for flowers. Good thing, otherwise I’m not sure who would have pulled the wagon… 😉 Of course I love all my kids but I also love spending one-on-one time with each of them and this was one of those special times……
She Was Wrong
This was absolutely the last time I was going to sit in this chair in this oh so familiar position. One arm automatically supporting his little back while feeling the soft cotton of his onesie. The other hand, caressing his silky blond hair. His legs were now too long and his little feet kicked the…
Clean faces are SO overrated
Sometimes I get lazy with my mothering. You know, I don’t always change a diaper the very MINUTE I smell the stink. I don’t wipe the highchair off after every third meal. Sometimes I get yet ANOTHER sippy cup out of the cupboard after I know 3 or 4 have already been used that day….
Walking Together
The kids and I walk basically the same route around our neighborhood in the afternoons or early evenings whenever the weather is nice enough (meaning not too hot or humid at this point). The boys ride their bikes and I pull K in the green wagon as we make our way around the few familiar…
Mothers Everywhere
One of my favorite lines from the musical “Wicked” is: “She had a mother, like SO many do…” Cracks me up every time. Of course in my case I’m blessed to have SO many wonderful mothers in my life. My own Mother is pretty amazing. And then there’s Tim’s mother. Also amazing. And Tim’s…
Two Sides of the Line
Recently we were at a function where there were several kids and a bounce house. The B Man and a girl about his age (but a little bigger in stature) were playing inside the bounce house and she was getting a little rough. They were playing “swords” (they were invisible) and at one point she…
Baby Pangs
Before the day I found out I was pregnant with K I thought a lot about having another baby. And I mean A LOT. I’ve always pictured myself as a mother of three. I’m not sure why, I just have. But truthfully, about the time that she came to be, I was resigned to being…
Bonus
There are days when my current “job” is hard-ish. Sometimes I wish for the times when I could get dressed every morning, have coffee in my office and eat lunch out with other adults at a decent restaurant. I miss feeling like I’m contributing to something “bigger”, more substantial. More significant. But then I snap…