I’ve held a few grudges in my life. Like the time a girl in my third grade class made a comment about how chubby I was, while playing kickball during P.E. one day. I knew her until we graduated from high school and I never wanted to be around her or talk to her after…
Goal-Less
Even though it may not look like it on paper, I accomplished quite a bit in 2017. Not everything that happened is considered positive (like a divorce becoming final) but I guess in some cases, it is all in the way you look at it, right? 
I did move house, find a new job…
Full
The calendar keeps surprising me. Another year is almost gone. Next week is Thanksgiving and then the hustle and bustle of the Christmas holidays begin. Before we can barely blink, my champagne glass will be full and I will once again resolve to do better in some way. Every year at this time, I feel…
Happy November
I’m preparing to leave and there is so much to think about and do before I go… Right now the living room is in disarray because the kids did little “shows” for me last night and moved the coffee table around and we did not have time to clean up, while watching the Astros win…
Flooded
My mini-van zooms down the highway as I look to the side and sporadically see blurred flashes of piled up debris near the road. If you look closely there are pieces of furniture and slabs of drywall and copious remnants of wood. I am passing by areas of South Texas that were flooded during Hurricane…
Going on a Date
I brush my hair in front of the mirror that I have used for almost eight years. The counter below is probably coated in a few layers of hairspray and has always been too low for my liking, even though I am short. This mirror has seen me postpartum and post cry. I have taken both mental…
Wings
A few years ago I bought some cute little wooden pieces of art. One has a lovely bird and the other has white angel-like wings and the letters F L Y. I am not a huge fan of actual birds (except maybe the gorgeous cardinals present around the trees in my yard) but I love pretty artwork…
Clarity
When I was a teenager I would sit on the floor in my bedroom, right behind the door. There was a full length mirror on the back of my bedroom door and while sitting there, I would stare deep into my own eyes. I would do this for a while, until I got this strange feeling, like…
Trusting
A friend texted me yesterday morning, asking if I had read a book called “Night”, by Elie Wiesel. Since I had not heard of the book, I looked it up online. After reading the quick synopsis, my mind immediately thought, “I cannot read this book right now”. In the meantime, I texted her and asked,…
He’s Not Coming Back
*I wrote this post quickly and on the fly last night. But the thoughts are older than that, meaning these feelings and events happened months ago, but I just felt compelled to write about them now* I finally changed the outgoing message on the answering machine. Yes, I still have an answering machine. Before…