I recently read this article by Allison Slater Tate – Parenting as a Gex-Xer: We’re the first generation of parents in the age of iEverything. If you are about the same age as me and you read this you will be nodding your head the entire time, I promise. I can relate to everything she…
Rare Bird, A Book Review
I started reading Anna’s blog, An Inch of Gray, after her twelve-year old son Jack was lost in a freak flash flood. I was directed there by another blogger, I cannot remember who. It could have been from a tweet or a mention on their blog, the details are sketchy. I do however, remember the pain I…
Fight or Flight
The warm cup of coffee sits before me and I think about all the things that would taste good with it. Like a muffin or a scone. Like a bowl of “cinnamon cereal”. Just one small bowl. And then the word “NO” pops into my head. A HUGE fonted “NO” that screams at me, YOU…
He Wasn’t Famous
The weeks leading up to my brother-in-law taking his own life were strange to say the least. In that time my husband had a premonition-like dream about his brother. And then the very next day my brother-in-law called him. They had not spoken in months. Shortly after that Tim and his brother were able to see…
Harder than it has to be…
I wrote this post a few months ago, you’ll notice my reference to Spring Break. Since then things have improved quite a bit. They are not perfect, but they are better. It may be because I’ve asked for help with this, in both prayer and to friends and in things I have read. But this…
Suicide Sucks
I put these words out there to some online friends the other day. As if they did not know this already. But unless someone close to you or close to someone you love has taken their life, I’m not sure you can really know the true depth of it’s suckage. Some good friends here…
Dumb Stuff
Everything seems dumb right now. Really, it just seems numb AND dumb. Yesterday on the drive home from Dallas, after my brother-in-law’s two memorial services on Sunday, Tim mentioned something – the Thai restaurant where we used to meet my mother-in-law and brother-in-law for dinner a lot. I lost it. Brian was not my…
Won’t you?
I walked into the kitchen to turn out the light and approached the sink to put in my empty glass. Darkness filled the room and I looked through the window over the sink to make sure the outside light was on, over the driveway. Tim was gone again. And not for good reason. I noticed movement…
Believing
I have been listening to the Christian station while tooling around in the van quite a bit lately and I started to wonder why I was suddenly drawn to this music… Well, the battery went out in my van a few weeks ago and Tim quickly installed a new one while at a gas station…
It Was Truly Amazing
There is a popcorn kernel on the rug next to K’s cute silver sandals, dropped there by G. There are LEGOs on my desk in front of me that G built, a “unicorn” for each of us. He even used a Sharpie to make smiley faces on them. In the chair next to me is B, navigating…