I’m sorry I wasn’t paying attention. I regret it now. Hindsight and all that. I regret that I didn’t always answer when you called for me, or pay attention to what you were trying to say to me. But sometimes I did. I know I did. Because I helped you tie your shoe and…
The Transformed Dragonfly
“Comfortably change flight patterns mid-air…” I recently discovered this phrase about the symbolic meaning of dragonflies. Apparently they can represent humans who can do the above. I am not sure how “comfortable” it was, but I can certainly relate to the other part of this statement, changing my (life’s) flight pattern mid-air. A few…
Flooded
My mini-van zooms down the highway as I look to the side and sporadically see blurred flashes of piled up debris near the road. If you look closely there are pieces of furniture and slabs of drywall and copious remnants of wood. I am passing by areas of South Texas that were flooded during Hurricane…
I Trust in You
The first word of this post should be Jesus, with a comma after it. So, the post should really be titled Jesus, I Trust in You. I didn’t use that title because I want people to be open to reading this and I am guessing there are many people that would not if I put the name…
Clarity
When I was a teenager I would sit on the floor in my bedroom, right behind the door. There was a full length mirror on the back of my bedroom door and while sitting there, I would stare deep into my own eyes. I would do this for a while, until I got this strange feeling, like…
Trusting
A friend texted me yesterday morning, asking if I had read a book called “Night”, by Elie Wiesel. Since I had not heard of the book, I looked it up online. After reading the quick synopsis, my mind immediately thought, “I cannot read this book right now”. In the meantime, I texted her and asked,…
He’s Not Coming Back
*I wrote this post quickly and on the fly last night. But the thoughts are older than that, meaning these feelings and events happened months ago, but I just felt compelled to write about them now* I finally changed the outgoing message on the answering machine. Yes, I still have an answering machine. Before…
Leaving
I am leaving for Christmas. I have to go because I will not be with my children on Christmas this year. That is going to be crazy tough, no matter where I wake up that morning. These are the times when I tend to stop short and wonder how life turned out this way. Not being with my children…
Scattered
A friend of mine said the other day that she felt “scattered” and I immediately thought, “Me too.” It’s sort of hard for me to focus lately. There are so many things I want to do, with regards to my writing and other goals that I have. But meanwhile… I am in the midst of…
Post-Election Blues
Yesterday was weird. I was in a haze for part of the day. I woke up and saw that Trump had won and I cried. No, I did not vote for Hilary either. I am one of those “3rd party” voters that people are pissed at. Funny thing is, I didn’t even vote for one…