“Comfortably change flight patterns mid-air…” I recently discovered this phrase about the symbolic meaning of dragonflies. Apparently they can represent humans who can do the above. I am not sure how “comfortable” it was, but I can certainly relate to the other part of this statement, changing my (life’s) flight pattern mid-air. A few…
I’ll Sleep When I Am Dead
“Oh no,” I hear from the back of the van as the morning radio news plays, and the four of us approach the school campus. “I left my backpack.” These are not the words a single mom, who works full time, wants to hear one minute before dropping her kids off at school. A school…
Goal-Less
Even though it may not look like it on paper, I accomplished quite a bit in 2017. Not everything that happened is considered positive (like a divorce becoming final) but I guess in some cases, it is all in the way you look at it, right? 😉 I did move house, find a new job…
Wings
A few years ago I bought some cute little wooden pieces of art. One has a lovely bird and the other has white angel-like wings and the letters F L Y. I am not a huge fan of actual birds (except maybe the gorgeous cardinals present around the trees in my yard) but I love pretty artwork…
He’s Not Coming Back
*I wrote this post quickly and on the fly last night. But the thoughts are older than that, meaning these feelings and events happened months ago, but I just felt compelled to write about them now* I finally changed the outgoing message on the answering machine. Yes, I still have an answering machine. Before…
Leaving
I am leaving for Christmas. I have to go because I will not be with my children on Christmas this year. That is going to be crazy tough, no matter where I wake up that morning. These are the times when I tend to stop short and wonder how life turned out this way. Not being with my children…
Decisions For Myself
Sometimes I feel like I am living two different lives. One is similar to the one I used to live but there is no husband in the house. At the front half of the week there are kids to talk with and hear the laughter of, and homework to be done. There are still schedules to adhere to…
Don’t Judge Me Because of My Divorce
My marriage was supposed to work out. It was supposed to be the marriage of all marriages. It was going to last forever and yes, have it’s ups and downs, but we, as a unit, were going to get through all those downs. There would be romance and love and hearts most of the time….
They Go Together
The gray sky covered like a blanket, but not a cozy one. Instead, scratchy and uncomfortable. The water poured from the sky as if someone was up there, emptying buckets from above, full of sharp drops. It all pooled at the entrance to the musty porch, just as it always did. It stopped raining outside for…
A Random Saturday
The only two sounds I hear are the dryer as the clothes tumble around in the heat, and the air conditioner, blowing so hard, trying to combat the stifling heat outside. I look toward the window, the bright sun causing shadows on the blinds, large wood stripes across the panes to keep things out. I…