Another Baby?

Today’s guest post is from my friend Meagan.  I’m not sure how I originally found her blog  but I am guessing it was through a photo link-up because she takes amazing photos of her adorable children.  She also does cute crafts and has recently fallen in love with her new stand mixer and made her first homemade cake. Plus, I think she’s starting to like vlogging.  Yep, she’s totally my kind of gal!

You can also find Meagan hanging out on twitter sometimes and you can even like her FB Page!

Please welcome Meagan from Meagan’s Musings as she talks to us about a decision many of us know about all to well… 🙂

I see a lot of them two mornings a week. Their pretty, round pregnant bellies are all over Andrew’s preschool drop-off.

Some of the mamas look so glamorous, tiny little legs with a perfectly round basketball belly. And some of them look like I did last summer in the 100 degree heat – round everywhere and super sweaty and sticky. 

But either way they are glowing and there’s going to be another baby!

Some days I really want to join them. And other days I think I’d cry if I found out we were going to have another baby.

We have been so blessed with Andrew, my three year old, and Caroline, my baby, who will be one next week. They are healthy and adorable and busy as can be.

I love that we have a boy and a girl. I’ll get to experience soccer and t-ball and football (maybe?) as well as ballet and cheerleading and teenage girl drama.

If we had two boys I am almost positive that we would have had a third baby – I really, really wanted to be a girl mama.

But now that we have one of each, our ultimate family size isn’t nearly as clear. I think big families are so awesome. I see families out and about with four or five kids and I think, “They must have so much fun together!” It’s beautiful chaos!

But am I brave enough for that? I don’t know.

If we decide to stop at two, am I okay with never again nursing a teeny-tiny squishy snuggly baby? Will I regret not ever feeling those first little flutters and kicks again? Seeing that beautiful little heartbeat on the ultrasound for the first time?

But then I think I’m ready to have older kids and be done with the baby stage. I really look forward to a time when I can decorate my living room with something other than lego dinosaurs, wear big earrings again and let Andrew and Caroline experience the awesomeness that is Disney World.

I know we have some time and don’t have to make a decision now, but we’ll need to decide in the next year or so, and I really have no idea what we’ll do.

Maybe I’ll just know. Maybe we’ll have an epiphany. A clear answer to our prayers. But for now I’m going to enjoy the two amazing kiddos who’ve blessed our lives more than anything we’d ever imagined.

I don’t know Meagan, that IS a tough one considering you make such beautiful babies… 😉 What say you, internets?